Monday, November 15, 2010

Even Therapists have bad days... overcoming grief with EFT

The downside of being an empathetic person is the development of intuition. Most of the time this works in a therapist's favour. To be able to be really present with a client and know what's going on for them and also where this may have stemmed from is really helpful.

Sometimes, this intution comes at a time when I don't want it to. Earlier this year I said to my amazing husband (Tony), that I felt our little dog Tully wouldn't make it through this year and if she went, so would our other dog, Saxon (standard poodle). Why I said this, I couldn't know. It was a preminition for sure as both dogs seemed healthy and happy at the time.

In May we said a sad farewell to Tully. She had kidney disease and arthritis and was almost completely blind and deaf. She went quickly over a matter of 24 hrs. One morning she was cheerfully eating her breakfast and enjoying a roll in the grass in the sun and the next day she couldn't lift her head or get up to go to the toilet. It was time. It was painful for me and my family. She was our first dog and we'd enjoyed her company for 15 years.

In the same week that this occured, our black standard poodle, Saxon was diagnosed with a melanoma on his little pinkie and we had to send him in to have the whole toe removed. We then had to cross our fingers and hope that they got it all.

Yesterday, after many months knowing intuitively that they didn't, I had it confirmed. We now are faced with losing him within the next month or two, three at the most.



Oh my, did I tap! Yes I did... on the sadness, the grief, the anger, the guilt and the dispair of knowing he can't be with me anymore. I need to tap more today and I will so that I can be fully present for him for what ever time he has left. We (the family and I) agree that we do not want him in pain. So while the cancer is not causing him any discomfort, which it currently is not, we will enjoy each and every moment with him.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

More About Kindness

I am loving this Geneen Rolf woman at the moment - she speaks the truth of my heart and finally I know there is a way forward...  This is for any person who has ever struggled with what to put into their mouth... stop the struggle..

More About Kindness

Monday, September 6, 2010

Parenting ... can it be done calmly?

I must admit, I'm a people watcher.  My excuse is that it goes with the territory.  When I'm not engrossed in shopping or having a coffee with a friend or family member, then I watch the people around me.  Because I am also passionate about parenting, I do also watch their parenting styles, especially when there's kicking and screaming involved (and that's just the parents). 

If you're a parent, you'll probably cringe at this or start getting paranoid about who's watching you in the supermarket.  But as much as we all try and modify our not so good parenting in public, kids will be kids and they seem to know when to push the buttons harder because other people are in ear shot and they can get away with more.

I talk to many parents who come to me at their wits end, having tried everything and finding nothing works.  While I'm happy to help and explore better ways of parenting with them, nothing works better than practice and learning within a group environment.  A dreaded parenting workshop!  Are they any good?  Some are, some are not and some only work while your child is young enough to have punishment work on them.

In a parenting workshop you have a group of parents who are also experiencing difficulties, some just like you, some less, some more and some who are trying to get in early.  Many parents come to my workshops asking how can I control my kid?  What punishment works?  How can I get them to stop lying to me?  How to I understand them?  How can I get them to listen?  Why do they fight so much? 

The parenting skills I teach help them deal with all of the challenges parents face and do so calmly!  The advantage of a group environment is the sharing of experiences and the opportunity it provides to practice new skills.  Over the course of a number of weeks, the parents evolve, as do their families and we all get to rejoice in the new found peace and harmony for some.  For others, it is an ongoing challenge.  The challenge is not so much the skills to practice and get accomplished at, it's the awareness of your own triggers that get in the way of being a good parent.

Our own emotional intelligence is the only thing preventing us from being fantastic communicators (and therefore amazing parents).  Emotional Intelligence is awareness.  Being totally aware that your emotional buttons have been pushed and having a willingness to examine, own and explore your own emotions, where they came from (your past experiences) and releasing them allows you to be fully in the present moment and able to think calmly and clearly. 

What do I mean about your past being connected to your emotional triggers?  Traumatic experiences in our lives set up emotional responses which can dictate how you react when similar situation occur.  So when your child is angry with you and says "I hate you" and a part of you that remembers your mother saying that in a fit of rage to you and you feeling so alone and distraught because you thought she was going to leave you, that you break down and cry leaving your child shocked watching you distraught.  Your child has said something in the fit of anger, but your reactions was born from your own childhood experience.  It's no longer valid, but you don't even know that.  All of our emotional triggers are no longer valid.  They are just pre-programmed.

Wouldn't it be nice to be able to deal with your own emotional triggers rather than taking these out on your children, parents, friends or collegues.  What if you could re-programme your reaction?  Would you?  Or are you OK with loosing it and potentially damaging your relationships with others?

Truthfully, I still lose it on rare occassions.  However, I do own it, apologise and explain to the person what was going on for me.  I am 100% totally responsible for my reaction.  I wouldn't have it any other way.  I feel totally free by doing so.  I don't want to be a slave to my past and I don't want to lose my own personal power by blaming someone else for my reaction.  You will not find me saying "You make be so angry", because you can't.  Only I have the power to get angry and I chose to do it on my terms and understand where that anger comes from and deal with any old memories that I need to.  Thankfully I have all the knowledge and know how of how I can do that.  These self development tools have given me peace and happiness.  They are not difficult, quite the opposite, they are easy.  Anyone can do it.  Anyone who is willing to examing themselves compassionately and release their old hurts, pain and emotional trauma can have the freedom to choose their future because they are no longer being dictated to by their past.



So yes, parenting can be done calmly... with a bit of work, practice and compassion.

Many of my clients have asked me to combine the parenting skills with the tools and knowledge of how to release your old emotional triggers.  I would love your help and feedback on how best to do this.  I have put together a 10 question survey on parenting. Please help me to put together the most comprehensive parenting training yet by completing it and giving me your input.  It will help me to understand your needs more and to build a parenting course which will apeal to everyday parents looking for help and wanting to be the best parent they can be.

Click here to take survey and thank you in advance.

xx
Vanessa

Saturday, August 14, 2010

I'm in love with the Matrix

Matrix or Quantum field, what ever you want to call it.  It's that field of energy that flows around you and allows you to pick up on moods within the room just as you walk in.  It's the field of energy that the HeartMath Institute deem to be about 10 feet around you.  It's the field that some quantum physicists (such as Dr Bruce Lipton) believe holds information about you that helps your body react to your environment according to your memories.

Speaking of memories, I have been hearing a lot about memories and research on the local ABC radio station recently and just how unreliable they are!  They took two people who came in pairs to the experiment and then showed them the same sequence of footage with slightly different details of the event (being a staged robbery).  They then allowed the two people to discuss the event and despite not seeing some of the details (such as the robber wearing a hat) the witness swore that the detail they remembered was true.  It seems that if we discuss the event with another witness and are given details we then believe that to be true and our memory is changed with that information.  Says a lot for witnesses of a crime hey?

Why do I bring this up?  Welll just think of your childhood memories... and if you have siblings, have you discussed this memory?  Have you found that they remember different things?  I bet you have...  The thing is our memories are tainted with miss information and without the perspective that we have today.  So if you suffered a major trauma, like I did, when you were young, you any anyone else involved could never recount the actual truthful factual account of the event.  Why?  Because our emotions and our reptilian brain get in the way!

The reptilian brain switches us from healthy growth mode (creating cells and such) to fight, flight and freeze reaction mode (immune and digestion suppressing) and does not know reason, it just responds to a perceived threat.  All of our big traumas (life changing) and little traumas (the times where we were not in danger but still emotionally affected us) are stored away as memories for future reference by our unconscious mind so that we can know how to react to a situation.  The issue with this is that by remaining unconscious, we respond the same way as we did when the first trauma happened so sometimes we can still be responding from memories we created when we were little and that can't be helpful!  By being aware, we are able to overcome these old reactions.

The matrix, or quantum field is where these memories are stored, according to Dr Bruce Lipton.  I'm loving the matrix because I am in the process of revisiting so much of my childhood and re-imprinting it so that I can now (in the present) respond from a more enlightened, empowered and resourceful way.  Because, ultimately if my memory is flawed because of my experience and response to it, then it serves me no purpose to hold onto that and remain in victim mode.  It beats responding from a 4 year olds perspective!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

I give myself permission to balance..

Sadly, last week I was struck down by the office bug.  Why should that matter?  Well what was so sad was that despite having all the tools at hand to help myself recover quickly, I did nothing.  Absolutely nothing...

I wallowed, I even dragged my daughter out of bed to help me with the chooks at 6:30 in the morning, cancelled the Rhubarb delivery and crept back into bed and felt sorry for myself.  I spent the day in bed and then had a nice hot bath in the afternoon with Epsom salts.  The most I did to help myself was dose up on Vitamin C (about 10,000 mgs).  By the next day I felt better and was up and about again and reflecting on my unwillingness to tap (EFT or BodyTalk techniques) to help myself recover the second I felt something coming on (which was about 3-4 days prior) and it was then that I discovered the reason.

I needed a reason to take a day off!  Unbelievable!  So fiercely independent I am, running my business, running the farmlet, working at the Uni and it seems I forgot the one thing I preach the most - balance!  What is life for if you don't have balance.  How ridiculous life can be if you don't feel you can have a day off just to do the things you love.   I could have spent the day in bed enjoying reading my book and have a nice long bath just for the enjoyment of it.  I don't need to get sick to do that.

So chose to have time for yourself, write down all the things you love doing and incorporate it into your life, whether you give yourself an hour, afternoon or whole day - it's about balance.  Making life worth living and not just living a life.

The things I love to do
  • Read books - inspirational, spiritual and thrillers
  • Taking long baths (with my book)
  • Sleeping in  (to at least 8:30)
  • Cooking for pleasure (and not for need)
  • Gardening (planting is my favourite)
  • Walking the country lanes
  • Singing my heart out in the car/garden listening to my iphone/ipod
  • Decorating the house
  • Creating - anything (last thing was an incubator)
  • Going to the movies with my girl/man
  • Having coffee with a friend
  • Skyping my girlfriends in Canberra
  • Drawing
  • Walking Meditations
  • Looking for beauty in every glance

Monday, July 5, 2010

Self Health - When Nothing Else Works

If you think of what is truly important to you in all areas of your life - the people, the experiences and even the material things you love having around you, all of these things that you value and provide you with happiness can be impacted by one thing - your health.

If you’re unwell, finding happiness in the moment is near impossible and just making it through the day can be challenging. Nowadays, health is more than just a physical condition, it’s mental and spiritual. Physics and psychological research has recognised that mental health is essential to physical health, because if the unconscious mind is working so hard dealing with the mental challenges, then the running of the ship (the body) comes in second at best.

However, health seems to be the one area we, as a modern society, seem to be struggling with the most. We rely upon the advice of doctors, nutrition experts and governments as to what is right for us in the area of our mental and physical health and yet, that advice seems to change or is contradicted almost weekly! This indicates that we still don’t know what’s right for us, why it’s going wrong and we don’t know how to change it.

The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) is the guide by which psychologists and psychiatrists determine what mental issue a person has. This guide alone has grown exponentially over the last 30 years, as have the pharmaceutical options for treatments. The DSM has gone from having just four known mental conditions to over 400, all provided with an over-the- counter drug solution. However, there are many cases where the pharmaceutical option has caused more problems with side effects or worse - death.

The modern western medical model has provided us with great improvements and a longer life, however it too, is to be questioned as it has almost enslaved us by our expectations that it can fix it all. Many doctors now are so afraid of getting a diagnosis wrong they are submitting their patients to expensive, extensive, invasive tests which can also cause complications and long term issues.

In addition to this, our modern way of living has increased obesity, heart disease, diabetes and autism. Prostrate and breast cancer seem to be thriving and as yet, we haven’t see the government or medical model provide any answers to the causes of the disease. Is it what we’re eating? Is it the chemicals we spray on our food? Genetic modification? Vaccinations? Or is it what we are feeding the animals that end up on our table? Is finding the causes of our diseases too hard because it would create a problem in the industry that is causing the problem? Why is the government and medical science only looking for solutions to the symptoms and not hunting down the cause?

This sounds really scary, doesn’t it! What is really scary is how reliant we are on the modern medical system, with the over-the-counter drugs and doctor and surgery treatment options. You may have even ventured into alternative health solutions. However, unless that solution is looking beyond treatment of the symptoms then we are really just looking at band-aid solutions, as the causes are never found that way. Ask any doctor the question “why have I got this?” and they can’t answer that. They don’t know why, they are only trained to treat the symptoms.

 
There is another option, but it involves something that most people have forgotten or have never had the thought or option to do and that is to take full responsibility for their own health – mental and physical and stop giving your power away to another person.  You may even be questioning if that is even possible! Yes it is.
Am I telling you not to go to the doctor or hospital if you are ill? No, I am not. I do believe in the value of a good medical system and if you are sick then they can help you overcome the symptoms, but they can’t tell you why your body failed you. Each person is unique, there is no one size fits all system and the medical model is run by humans, which implies that it cannot be perfect. What you need to do is to work with the system but not surrender yourself to it (see the case example below). 
 
You can start by addressing your physical health, but unless you also address your mental health then you are really just working on a band-aid solution. Get yourself sorted out mentally and the body will follow and improve. There is research that shows that our disease and physical issues are linked to our emotions and past traumas. Just think about how your body feels on a bad day, or if you are stressed, how your body tenses up and often headaches occur. So let’s start there.

Mental health is more than just taking a mental health day here and there. It’s a change of your mental approach to life, even under the most extreme circumstances. If you are prone to stress, anxiety, depression or mood swings then the chances are that you have had experiences in life that have taught you how to react in situations and those lessons have not been helpful.

Up to the age of six, we are like little mental sponges and we learn our beliefs and values by watching those around us and by our negative experiences. So if you have a belief as an adult that you’re not good enough and constantly have to perform to a perfect standard, which causes you to be stressed out, self-judgemental and anxious, then it’s highly likely you have learnt this belief from an incident in early childhood and it’s been repeated over your life-time. The result of negative belief systems can impact your mental and physical health. Your reaction to life can create stress which turns on the reptilian part of your brain’s fight, flight and freeze response and thus causes the other bodily functions (such as digestion, immune functions and hormone functioning) to take a back seat. If you look around you, how many people do you know who get stressed out easily and are constantly sick or have allergies, intolerances or other health problems? Stress is a killer. Stress is caused by our cognitive approach to the experiences in our life and can be experienced even in the womb (babies react to their mother’s stress).

Our unconscious mind is similar to a filing system, everything is stored away in it and we constantly refer to these files to determine how we react to every situation. You are programmed to respond automatically, which allows your brain to concentrate on your bodily functions. Can you change this? Yes, you can. There are simple techniques that can be used to help you reprogram how you respond and these techniques can be done by you. Some of these you already know, others you have yet to learn, but they are all available to you here, now. 
  • Exercise – it’s a fact that regular exercise helps reduce stress and create happy hormones in the body.
  • Meditation – very good for relaxation and helping the body switch out of stress reaction. It requires regular application to be effective.
  • Mindfulness – helps us recognize how and why we mis-take the actuality of things for some story we create, and then makes it possible to chart a path toward greater sanity, well-being, and purpose.
  • Energy Psychology – is a combination of techniques which treat and relieve suffering from emotional challenges such as addictions & compulsions, anxiety, depression, limiting beliefs, personality disorders, phobias, stress, and trauma and also help maximize human performance in business, sports and the arts. One of the simple techniques is Meridian tapping which is simple to learn and to apply and a fantastic Self Help technique.
  • BodyTalk Access – Developed by an Australian Dr John Veltiem and now supported by the International BodyTalk Association to be taught in developing countries to anyone where medical assistant and medicine is not readily available – 5 simple wellness techniques which help the body to invoke natural powerful immune responses for illness, allergies, intolerances, toxins and fungal conditions, restore the body’s natural tension and integrity between the muscles, tendons, ligaments and connective tissue and therefore reduce physical pain, balance the cortices of the brain allowing for more focus and mental response and lastly, to switch off the stress response in the brain and calm yourself down.

Now if you are prepared to take control of your emotional health by employing one of the above methods, then you will naturally start taking control of your physical health and seek more balance diet, drink less and stop sabotaging your exercise regime.

So now you know what you could do the next step is to find out how to do it. The first step is to find someone who can teach you how and then apply it for yourself. This can be done through the internet (EFT is freely available on the internet to learn) or you can attend a workshop locally that provides you with the ability to learn with others and experience the technique in an environment where you can ask questions and explore. Regular workshops for Meridian Tapping, meditation, mindfulness, stress reduction and BodyTalk Access are available in Coffs Harbour through the Mind and Body Institute (http://www.mindandbodyinstitute.com.au/Workshops.html1300 646 326) or Pam’s Studio (http://www.pamelamillican.com.au/ - 0423 214 320).

For more information about these techniques you can also attend free information evenings at the Coffs Harbour Cavanbah Centre (corner of Harbour Drive and Earl Street) 6-7pm on the following dates:
  • Monday 19 July 2010
  • Monday 16 August 2010
  • Monday 13 September 2010
  • Monday 8 October 2010
  • Monday 11 November 2010
During these free information evenings you’ll be able to experience Meridian tapping and one of the BodyTalk Access techniques as well as finding out about available workshops for meditation, mindfulness, meridian tapping and BodyTalk Access.

Case Example – Taking control of your cancer
A great example of taking control is Christine who was diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 48. After her initial shock and panic, she did her research, and discussed her treatment with her Oncologist. She told him she was happy to have the lump removed but not have any chemotherapy or radiation treatment as she knew they would greatly affect her quality of life. He agreed to that, based on the cancer not spreading to her lymph nodes. In fact, the cancer was found in two out of the three lymph nodes they removed for testing. However, again, Christine had done her research and could show him data from scientific journals that say that the maximum her life would be extended was 8.6% (maybe less) by radiation and at most 5% by chemotherapy - in fact the Oncologist said that overall chemotherapy only helps about 30% of patients, the rest get no benefit. He also agreed to her request for no mammograms or any other forms of ionising radiation, since they could increase a person’s risk of breast cancer (she showed him some scientific evidence to back this up). The treatment approach she put forward was to lose weight, walk 6-7kms per day, take a natural anti-oestrogen reducing supplement, avoid all plastics, eat organic food and take vitamin and herbal supplements. She of course, had the evidence to show him that this would help reduce the risk of the cancer returning. The Oncologist agreed to check her progress every 3 months and to have thermal imaging done (no radiation). So essentially, all Christine had done was to have the lump and 3 lymph nodes taken out (with a 78% chance that they got it all) and take full control of her health. She’s now getting on with her life and doing well.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Inspirational people

A few years ago my friend (an amazing artist) Rebecca Vavic introduced me to a writer by the name of Paulo Coehlo.  His books are not put into general fiction, yet they are fiction, they are put in the spirtual section of the book store which I think is such a shame as many fictional readers wouldn't dream of drifting into the spiritual/self help section.  His best seller is the Alchemist, however, I love two of his other books the most - Veronica Chooses to Die and By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept.  My amazing friend Rebecca is also a photographer and made this image honoring the quote we both love out of the book.  Click on the image to see what inspired me from this book.