Sometimes, this intution comes at a time when I don't want it to. Earlier this year I said to my amazing husband (Tony), that I felt our little dog Tully wouldn't make it through this year and if she went, so would our other dog, Saxon (standard poodle). Why I said this, I couldn't know. It was a preminition for sure as both dogs seemed healthy and happy at the time.
In May we said a sad farewell to Tully. She had kidney disease and arthritis and was almost completely blind and deaf. She went quickly over a matter of 24 hrs. One morning she was cheerfully eating her breakfast and enjoying a roll in the grass in the sun and the next day she couldn't lift her head or get up to go to the toilet. It was time. It was painful for me and my family. She was our first dog and we'd enjoyed her company for 15 years.In the same week that this occured, our black standard poodle, Saxon was diagnosed with a melanoma on his little pinkie and we had to send him in to have the whole toe removed. We then had to cross our fingers and hope that they got it all.
Yesterday, after many months knowing intuitively that they didn't, I had it confirmed. We now are faced with losing him within the next month or two, three at the most.
Oh my, did I tap! Yes I did... on the sadness, the grief, the anger, the guilt and the dispair of knowing he can't be with me anymore. I need to tap more today and I will so that I can be fully present for him for what ever time he has left. We (the family and I) agree that we do not want him in pain. So while the cancer is not causing him any discomfort, which it currently is not, we will enjoy each and every moment with him.
